Off in a beautiful land not too long ago, Christine*, our nutritional heroine, said “Enough!” and set off to pursue, in a valiant effort, a weight loss journey of extraordinary measure.
She called on conventional teachings of her people. The path had been laid out before her:
Eat Less, Exercise More, Lose Weight.
And that she did!
She began her journey by signing up for a 8-week fitness program, where she lunged, burpeed, and kettlebelled her way into a stronger, more toned physique with daily practice.
Yes, it was challenging, but she was determined.
And then onto food…
She took to the advice to reduce her portions, and reduce them she did! Each time an opportunity to eat a little more arose, she proudly said, “NO.”
Eight weeks came and went. Yes, she had lost weight and she celebrated.
But then a strange and mysterious thing happened. The weight loss “high” she experienced waned. She found herself missing certain foods. She found that most of her mental and psychic energy was devoted to her eating and it was growing tiresome.
When she felt stressed or triggered at work or with her family, she found herself feeling less resilient, less motivated, less inspired to stick with her plan.
Where were the strong legs she felt she had to stand on?!
She found herself, veering off her perfect diet.
And the imperfection triggered her. Her mind seemed to turn on her, compartmentalizing days into “good days” or “bad days,: foods into “good foods” and “bad foods,” and portions into “good portions” and “bad portions.”
She ate “clean” and exercised some days OR she skipped workouts and imbibed in a slew of earthly delights on others.
Our heroine fell unconscious to an energy that her people had not warned her about.
Because they, too, fell unconscious to it’s seduction.
Christine found herself looking for NEW programs, NEW protocols, NEW promises to help her overcome her problem.
Her inspiration seemed have gone into hiding.
The popular belief: Eat less and exercise more, somehow back-fired.
And now she felt not only like a failure, but like a victim.
Victim to an energy inside her that expected nothing but perfection.
Any weight higher than her lowest weight was wrong. Any way of eating that was less pure than her most pure way of eating was wrong. Any way of moving her body that was not the most intense or weight-loss focused was wrong, wrong, wrong.
To quiet the criticism, in the most ironic of ways, she found herself soothing herself with food.
Instead of taking classes most days, she was ordering take-out most days.
She even tried to love her body, a popular new movement, and found herself failing at that, too. The same frustrating cycles continued for weeks…and for years.
In a moment of Grace one evening, when our dear Christine was feeling quite low sitting alone on the couch with a full, rounded belly, she opened to 10% more curiosity that she ever had, and dared to consider:
“Maybe there’s nothing wrong with me. Maybe something about the way I’ve been doing things is causing my suffering…
“Maybe these weight loss teachings are out-dated…”
And with that, the spell had not been broken, but challenged. And the challenge was enough for Christine to stay open to new knowledge. Knowledge that could free her.
Now a brief pause from our story…